February 26, 2013
Last week I spent a lot of time sitting in my big chair listening to one and two-syllable words: sweep, harder, go, go, hurry, hurry hard, clean it, just for line.
In between enhancing my vocabulary, watching high fives, low fives and very animated facial expressions, I managed to watch a granddaughter swim for her university team a couple of times, a grandson play volleyball for his university team, and my favourite basketball and hockey teams lose and win.
In my spare time I also managed to read a couple of books on my kindle.
I did get to participate in some meaningful conversation though, as my best friend and I debated the merits of a particular shot, whether they should have guarded or drawn into the house and was the young Ontario team that won starting a new curling dynasty.
I think I might have been a bit lethargic, perhaps a bit over zealous on the sports side of life and maybe even procrastinated a bit on other things. Oh well, I get to take a week off before I listen to the same conversation from the men as they participate in the brier.
I was also happy to look out the window this morning and see the drive way covered with snow as I got to participate in some meaningful exercise.
*** FYI, for the readers who are not Canadian, Dad’s talking about the game of curling in his post today!
February 25, 2013
I walk into the living room and it’s not even that bad. A few books scattered and some sheets of music on the floor and a drinking glass left on the shelf, and some of the clutter, honestly, is mine. But I walk in and see them sitting and relaxing and it boils up in me and the words rush out at them. Immediately I’m sorry. I’m wrong and I know it, and I try to make it right but the words are already out there, lives of their own in sarcastic syllables.
I know I’m tired and it’s been a long couple of weeks and I can give all the reasons why, but it doesn’t matter. They’re tired too, and they’ve been working hard and pitching in and I had no right.
I apologize and we try to find our footing again. It’s the middle boy, all sixteen-year-old wisdom, who says the words.
I think you’re just too busy, Mom.
They cut me, these words, but I know the truth of them. He’s right. I’ve let it happen. All these good things, crowding out these good children.
I stop right there and I put them first. I write a new list and I put their names at the top and I tell them so.
To be honest, it helps. When the list is ordered right, when the most important are made the most important, the rest falls into place.
February 21, 2013
I’m blogging today at How to Homeschool High School. (We’re thinking of changing the name to something a little less stuffy, by the way, so if you have any suggestions we’d love to hear them.)
Anyway, I’m blogging about Finding Joy, and while I do spend a little time whining about winter and blizzards and the flu, I find myself in a better frame of mind by the end of the post.
You can read it all here.
And have a great weekend!
February 20, 2013
Sometimes I have a hard time making decisions. There are too many options or there is too much information, and I can drive myself crazy trying to figure out the best thing.
I put too much importance on these things. As if what I choose is going to make or break it, whatever it is. As if the future success of everything rests on me and the choices I make.
Who am I kidding?
I like Carter’s solution.
When you can’t decide what hat to wear, wear them all.
I need to lighten up, already.
February 19, 2013
I had breakfast today with one of my favourite people. My middle son and I shared toast and tea and it was nice to visit with him, just him, for a few minutes before he went out to do chores.
Colton is the last man standing.
Our home has been hit with a nasty bug, and so far he and I are the only ones who haven’t fallen victim. We were talking about it. About trying to avoid what will probably be inevitable. About how it’s almost worse, the anticipation of something nasty than the nasty itself. About how, if it’s going to happen, we’d have rather had it first and gotten it over with.
It feels like years since we’ve done math or read a book.
Sometimes, just trying to stay ahead of the nasty is about all there is energy for.
February 17, 2013
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He sleeps. Finally. The house stills and we tiptoe around, closing doors softly and whispering our words to each other. I watch the clock, wondering if his body will wake him again, wretched, teary, to reach for the ice cream pail sitting on the floor beside the couch where he rests.
Its illness upon illness this winter, days piling up like the heavy snow drifts outside my door.
Through the window I see the snow blowing white across my yard, another storm. I cough and cough, and I take a vitamin c tablet but I have to admit the cold I’m fighting has taken me over. I cough into my sleeve and not into my hand, the way we are told to do it now. Quietly as I can though, so as not to wake him.
A tall boy wanders in and out of the room, restless. I’ll go out and check on that last pregnant goat, he says. Needing something to do, and I understand the itch he is feeling.
Dad naps, and the other boy retreats to the basement, hiding from the germs.
I sink a little. Tired right out, you know. And yet, even weary weak I know he is there. I feel him, around me. I do. And I know I am not alone. I rest in that. I sink into that.
Sunday eases into evening, and for today church is this room and prayer.
February 14, 2013
I’m blogging today at How to Homeschool High School… about moms and Valentine’s Day and meeting or not meeting those mom expectations we all have. Oh, and about goats. Take a peek, would you?
And happy Valentine’s Day!
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