I’ve been saying I’ll write tomorrow for way too many tomorrows now.
I hate when the thing I love to do and want to do and get all kinds of happy feelings from becomes a good but unfulfilled intention. Maybe you have some of those, too? Maybe for you it’s not words but something else, some other project or mission or lovely thing.
For me it’s words, but lately all my words seem dull. Dusty.
Lately it seems all the good words are being written by someone else. It seems like my words are the dowdy country cousins who have no business hobnobbing with the cool well-dressed kids.
And really, what does a homemaking, child-rearing, nap-craving woman have to say anyway? That’s the dowdy cousin in me talking. But I’m kind of listening to her old self these days, which is silly and unproductive and I know it.
Here’s the thing. I know what I know, but I feel what I feel. And sometimes the two aren’t friends.
So today I’m reintroducing myself to myself. We’re getting reacquainted and we’re having a little conversation, dull though it may be.
We’re reminding each other about the good things we know… that husband is kind and children are treasures and country life is wonderful and winter will end one day. And we’re reminding each other about the good things we feel… that look in his eye and the way his hand curls around mine and the warmth of a hug and the sinking cozy sweetness at the end of a long day. And self meets self, knowing meets feeling, and…
…well, hello again, joy.
March 3, 2014 at 5:52 pm
Oh J I’m so glad you wrote. I have been missing your words because so often I can find myself in the things you write even though I leave my country home everyday to go to a job away from home. Maybe it is the stage of life or the things that makeuis doubt or fear but sometimes you say what I can’t find the words to say. So I am glad you reintroduced yourself today and I pray that much joy returns.
And yes winter will pass, and spring will come and we will feel the warmth of the country sun and a good cup of coffee enjoyed in that sunshine.
Love to you today.
March 3, 2014 at 7:20 pm
Thank you, my friend. My fingers have been itching to write but sometimes it’s hard to get it down:) I’d so love to have a sunny coffee with you! Love you:)
March 3, 2014 at 5:55 pm
NOTHING WRONG WITH BLOGGING A POSITIVE FAMILY FULL OF BLESSING!!! 🙂
March 3, 2014 at 6:59 pm
Amen to that~! It is a beautiful thing
March 3, 2014 at 7:20 pm
Haha! You are right, Jonathan:)
March 3, 2014 at 5:56 pm
I miss you when you are not there, but I hope you do not feel guilty when you don’t write. This has been a very long winter, but the sun has made each day bearable. It’s been great to sit in the sunny window and read.
March 3, 2014 at 7:22 pm
I don’t feel guilty, but I do feel a little “itchy”:)
March 3, 2014 at 5:57 pm
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March 3, 2014 at 6:17 pm
Your stunning photo really portrays the beauty in simplicity. Thanks for the reminder that joy can really be found in the little things – home, husband and family. We just need to take a moment to appreciate the simple life.
March 3, 2014 at 7:22 pm
Appreciating goes a longest toward happiness, I know!
March 3, 2014 at 6:29 pm
I have missed you. My friend in Saskatchewan. I have missed your words.
March 3, 2014 at 7:23 pm
I’ve missed my blogging friends. Just read about the new puppy:)
March 3, 2014 at 6:58 pm
Yes!!! I celebrate today with you then, send that dowdy cousin packing. She has overstayed her welcome. I know it is so incredibly far, but I so wish you were coming to Allume this year. I can’t wait to meet you in person
March 3, 2014 at 7:24 pm
Oh how wonderful that would be! I will look forward to hearing about it. Maybe next year:)
March 3, 2014 at 7:55 pm
“It seems like my words are the dowdy country cousins who have no business hobnobbing with the cool well-dressed kids.” You have such a way with words. I like you.
March 4, 2014 at 7:23 am
I like you, too.
March 3, 2014 at 8:02 pm
P.S. I was feeling all too-much-winter and too-much-mucous this week so as an “instead” I posted a photo of poppies outside the fence you mentioned that you liked. You cheered me up without having to write anything. Your words from from last summer just go on.
March 4, 2014 at 7:28 am
I saw it and it made me smile. I love that picture. That translucent red against the black, and boldly and gloriously growing in a forgotten behind-the-fence place.
March 4, 2014 at 2:42 am
“what does a homemaking, child-rearing, nap-craving woman have to say anyway?” Oodles… and all spirit driven too J. If I didn’t already know that your words are gifted, I too would move to the countryside to commune with goats and snow … Just so I could “catch” the gift. I’m glad you’re back. I missed you. But please, don’t feel you HAVE to be here. Always in HIS time;)
March 4, 2014 at 7:29 am
Always in His time. Yes.
March 4, 2014 at 4:39 am
I love the way you say hello to yourself and the world around you. Its something we should do very day
March 4, 2014 at 7:30 am
Yes. Some days I miss myself, though:)
March 4, 2014 at 11:49 am
Glad you took the time to write. It is so very winter, and we all getting the blaaa feeling, but you always cheer me up. Thank you for making the effort to encourage, yourself, as well as us.
March 5, 2014 at 11:41 am
It is so very winter, indeed. It makes me happy to know you read this once in a while:)
March 4, 2014 at 11:51 am
It is all for a reason Janelle. As you told me, beautiful words will come. Hugs.
March 5, 2014 at 11:42 am
Seasons:)
March 4, 2014 at 3:07 pm
I have been meaning to comment many, many times Janelle as your words spill out on the page, I so often can relate – and so I learn a little more of myself through you! You have a wonderful gift and you’re in a wonderful ministry!
March 5, 2014 at 11:43 am
Thank you so much! This is such an encouragement to read.
March 4, 2014 at 7:52 pm
Sometimes I have to make my peace with the fact that I don’t want to write (and that’s okay, it’s just a hobby). Usually in those times I’m content with simply living my life, and I really don’t have much to say. And sometimes I have to make myself write because I know that I’ll feel better when i do. I also think it’s the time of year… spring is not here yet and we’re all feeling a little dry and dull. You’re definitely not the only one 🙂
March 5, 2014 at 8:25 pm
I know it’s a dreary time of year:) it’s kind of like exercise. I feel better when I do it:)